You are the greatest gift anyone can ever receive. Thank you for putting me where I am right now. I don’t need any presents, cause YOU are all I ever needed <3 Merry Christ-mas guys! Don’t forget the real meaning of Christmas (:
I thought you were supposed to be there for me. I thought you promised to stay with me. I thought you were supposed to comfort me when I’m lonely or when I cry. But you are never here anymore. I always feel so lonely and usually, you would talk to me so I wouldn’t feel lonely anymore. And the other night, I cried to myself for like 2 hours. And where were you? Not there helping me. I know you are “busy”, but you can’t even make a couple minutes for me? I guess not… I mean, what are friends for?
Our whole universe was in a hot dense state, Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started. Wait… The Earth began to cool, The autotrophs began to drool, Neanderthals developed tools, We built a wall, we built the pyramids, Math, science, history, unraveling the mysteries, That all started with the big bang! Hey!
It just heartbreaks me to see that these people struggle so much to get like spare change from strangers in order to survive. Everytime I see someone out begging for money, it’s always when I don’t have any on me. And I know if I ask my parents they would say no (i dunno why). But it just makes me so sad that I didn’t do anything or give them anything. One of these days, I’m just gonna go out, buy like however many McChicken Sandwiches from McDonald’s and give them out. That would give me a reason to smile and it will just warm my heart seeing them being happy.
I needed to get away from school. A lot of “friends” and other people really start to piss me off and get on my nerves, And I can’t take it anymore. I can’t deal with people like that anymore. I just put on a fake smile and act like everything is okay. But really, everything is the total opposite.
I’ve been trying for so long to get your head in the right place. We are drifting apart and I’ve made new friends ever since. And they have been there for me more than you have. I try to make conversation with you, but you end up not responding or just ignoring me for someone else. One of these days, you are gonna ask “What happened to us? We were like the best of friends.” And I’m going to ignore you just like you did to me. The year is coming to an end, and so is our friendship.
Why do you even come and talk to me? You only talk to me when you have no one else to talk to. I feel used and worthless to you. I’ve always been there for you. I’ve always been a great friend to you like we are siblings. But you know, ever since high school started, you’ve seriously changed. And I saw it coming. I’d like it if you would talk to me whenever you feel like you need to talk to someone. But don’t talk to me when you are done talking to someone else and you don’t have anyone else besides me. It really makes me feel like I’m not as important to you anymore. It makes me feel sad and mad because we never talk anymore. It makes me feel… like im just… a second option.
Just cause you apologized once, doesn’t mean I’m gonna let you off the hook. You need to prove to me that you are sorry and show it. Not just telling me it. because whenever you tell me things, they always turn out to be lies.