You have no idea how glad I am about the fact that we aren’t friends anymore. I’m so happy a person like you are out of my life. I don’t know how much longer I would be able to put up with your bullcrap.
I’m so tired of falling for someone I know I shouldn’t. But you know, you can’t help it. It’s just something about them that makes them so special and amazing to you. Even when you tell yourself to forget about them, you know deep inside, you will always have feelings for that person.
I thought I meant something to you. I thought we had some kind of special connection. But instead, I find that you are like that to every girl. I can’t believe that for a second, I thought you were… different.
There’s only one person that will love you no matter how you look on the outside. He only cares about what’s on the inside. That’s all that really matters. He loves you for who you really are. Not that girl/guy that tries to impress people with clothes, attitude, language, and looks. He looks beyond our pretty faces. He looks deep within our soul; but if we act like we don’t know who He is on the outside, He will act as if He doesn’t know who we are either.
"Whoever acknowledges me before others, I will also acknowledge before my Father in heaven. But whoever denies me before others, I will deny before my Father in heaven."
Instead of complaining about my problems, I should be thanking you for where you put me. I realized that I hardly ever thank you for the good things you’ve done and gave for me. Even the bad things I experience. I now know that they are just things to test me and see how I really represent myself as a Christian. The reason I’m in a public school now is kind of clear to me. I just think that I was sent out of a private school because I was too comfortable there; I wasn’t that much of a Christian as I should be & I just needed to get out there and do my job. Public school has taught me many things and allowed me to experience things outside of my comfort zone. I think public school is like a roadblock; I just need to get through it, & there’s only one way. All the people that I’ve met have been an influence on me and sort of made me drift away from God and church. But I’m going to do my best to regain everything and become that person I once was. Thank you God for putting me in this position. I will try my best to make you proud and be a better Christian.
Fun fact I knew this girl from camp who had a British accent but she wasn’t from England and then one day I went to her house and her parents didn’t have a British accent either so I asked her where she got it from because I was really confused and she told me her parents faked it until she was 7 because they wanted a child with a British accent
but a lot of people on tumblr need to like get their heads straight, cause I’m like starting to dislike everyone on tumblr now. Just…
Be yourself.Stop acting like you are all cool because you’re what people call “tumblr-famous”. Even if you aren’t “famous”, stop trying to act cool just to get attention from cute girls/guys or just in general. Just cause you are “tumblr-famous” doesn’t mean you should act like a complete jerk to people. Just be yourself. Stop trying to please people and just be you. You say one thing and do the other. Quit the act and be who you really are. Reflect on how you were last year. I bet you weren’t anything like how you are now. Just be yourself. Be you.
Crazy, annoying, ridiculous, weird, gross, odd, creepy, strange, a freak, unusual, different, and anything but normal.
That’s just who I am. If you can’t accept me and all my “bad” qualities, then too bad for you. I’m not here to please you. This is who I am. Love me, hate me, whatever. Doesn’t matter to me. I’m not going to change the way I am for someone else. It’s not worth it.
Through thick & thin, we got through it together. When you were lonely and down, I was there to make you feel better and happy. When you felt like cutting or doing something stupid, I would help you through it. When you just wanted to talk to someone, I was there to talk to. But now, everything is different. You don’t need me anymore. You only talk to me when you are bored or have no one else to talk to. I’m always your last option now, which sucks. We didn’t even know each other for more than 2 years and we’ve made so many memories together. Are you really going to just throw that all away for someone else…?
No matter how bad I feel on the inside, I hide it with a smile. The reason is because I don’t want other people worrying about me. Or make anyone’s day like sad or something because of my sadness and pain. I love it when people try to comfort me, but smiling is better than showing my feelings because a smile can brighten someone else’s day rather than making theirs horrible because of me.
I’m going to be very careful who I choose as my friends. I just want to start things over, a fresh new start. Be that new kid at school again with only like 1 or 2 friends. If only I knew that the friends I chose back in 7th grade, would be like this in high school… I wouldn’t have been friends with them. Everything’s changed. I thought we would all grow up, spend our 4 years of high school together, and be friends for life. I thought we were all going to love each other no matter what crap gets between us. Boy, was I wrong. High school changes you. I thought it was going to be a fun Freshman year… It really wasn’t all that great at all. Lost friends, made friends, kept friends… Don’t like any of them anymore… Every one of my “friends” became either a “hypebeast” (and they go and treat me like a piece of crap after everything we’ve gone through together), a total female dog (and act like they are the shit), a “too-cool-for-you” person (treat me like crap too and think they are too cool for me), or just completely bullshi**ed our friendship up because of their boyfriend/girlfriend (I apparently wasn’t as important anymore). High school changes everyone. But I can’t do anything about it. I can’t make them change back. I’m not going to put effort into something that’s not going to end up the way it should be. I’m so done with these friends. Hopefully next year, I make new friends along the way and actually like them, or I move schools and be that new girl again.
I’m so done with this. I can’t take it anymore. I’m not even gonna try to deal with it because I know it’s not going to work out. I can’t force it to end. I’m just going to leave it alone and never look back..